Times I have moved houses:10

Times I broke up:1

People I had sex with:9

Friends for life I have met: 13

Fashion shows i’ve seen:6

Items I lost drunk:9

Exhibitons I’ve seen:26

Different hairstyles:7

Number of improved family member relationships:2

Number of jobs:6

Emails sent: 14 600

Number of songs I have obsessed about: 68

Spliffs I’ve smoked:21

Times I’ve traveled:4

Times I have been to the Joiners

Number of gay men I have met:x times 15

Number of straight men I have met:x

Shoots/shows I’ve been in: 5

Number of philosophy/spiritual books I’ve read:4

Times I’ve cooked times 50

Times I have worked out:127

Number ..Aah I am bored

The conclusion I come to is probably that the year has been extremly full of experiences that are extremly valuable but not in the way I have expected.

I was gonna write some deep shit, an analysis of where and who I was based on backtrack of my blog entries and point out that what i am feeling after all of that I feel I need to rebel against what I have wanted ( the big social whatever scene) and go away where nothing effects me.But going through older entries I have remembered why this blog was actually started, to provide people with inspiration, beautiful imagery and good music we find while sitting on our pretty asses in ad agencies with fat cheques and too little to do.

well baby baby baby maybe I haven’t been much inspired, maybe a break up, constant moving, recession. sending out 30 emails per day applying for jobs of all sorts but turning down the actuall offers for some fucked up reason and having sad and battered people around you have effected me somehow and pretty pictures dont cut it anymore. We need to dig deeper and find the truth, true friends, true meaning, true selves..it all goes down to love and goodness, without that nothing works in this world

Lately i am bursting with creativity, or maybe it I am just anxious due to lack of sex and nicotine… I do think it is bottled up feeling and ideas though. I really appreciate a lot of things but at the same time I have absolute no knowledge of anything, I am exposed to a lot of people and experiences but names, dates and info just pass me by. I don’t need to read ” This is the concept behind all of this” sheets we get at the galleries we attend for free drinks, neither do I need to know anything about this world, history of it or where it is going. Any art to me is purely subjective and speaks to me in a personal way, if it does, just like a horoscope you read in Metro on the tube, where you see it fit to your life. The one who is looking will find.

I am sure a lot of artists make art without deeper existential content and make things purely for the sake o it, “Well china figures of ninjas smashing looks cool, yeah lets take a picture” Don’t get me wrong, I love his work is aesthetically beautiful BUT it doesnt speak to me like a random screw in the ground.

What would happened if we would cut off ALL outside effects of the world, art shows, films, music, internet, friends, other peoples thoughts? Seclude to, in my case Finnish forrests and dig into existence, mathematics and meaning of it all. Have time off gay debauchery and drunken roof catwalks to analyze it all and boil it ALL down to something as another form of experssion. Sculpture, painting, installation, fashion, performance, dance.

Anyone who knows me knows I like attention and I like to dress up and be heard and seen, sickening, I am who I am and I express it intensely, BUT what if you remove all of those forms of self expression and concentrate it on one thing for a period of time.

Anyhow I wish I did not need food, money, sex, clothes, social events, art, music and would feel content secluded with only my self as the company.

Anyhow, this writing is pretty therapeutic, will go and have a cigarette as a substitute to sex. Above is some beautiful work that doesnt speak to me:

Japanese artist Chu Enoki’s artwork called RPM-1200, a diorama built from junk metal, old drill bits and spare machine parts polished into gleaming, shiny spires of a futuristic city.

And Here is Claire Morgan, I like her work, I would like to have it in my house but I do not have time to appreciate it on image, I need to feel it to understand it and I need to be in the mood:

What does speak to me today though is the mood and power of these songs, pure sex as I say:

Btw check out Saga Sig recent work for Dazed Digital, an editorial on jewellery!! She is so talented and so lovely!! Way to go girl!

I’ll be there with my strapon so gay boys cue up!

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Digitaria:

Random bangle, DUNN SHE KNOW IT?

My 2nd husband and a great musician, ex-house matey Colin or Cole Sams is fantabulous and is gigging at Rough Trade soon..love the man!

Matey, miss the evenings on our terrace drinking wine and listenin to you play the guitar and sing

xx

Baby boombox has got to go now but stay tooned for:

…Sex with gay man that are not gay or my take on the Vivienne Westwood generation of men

…Robert Clayton

…Kristin Knox

…My marriage (how do you spell that, its not in my vacabulary)

…How my ex got engaged to a girl that looks like me after only a couple of months

…Shitty couture shows

…Aiden Conor, she’s Couture

…Fuck digital, I am going into the wild

…My pussy is dripping 11 on a scale of 1 to 10

…A new generation of women..faghags united

…That amazing sculpture at that amazing gallery..I’m bad with names

…Till Jantz

…Doritos Id3 launch

…Kirill Sudosa

…Short and Sweet at Bar 1001

..Paris j’taime is my fav movie and how I cried my eyes out….I am very very sick..i cry even at American Dad..thats sad isn’t it

..How I like zombie disco squad-the dance

…How my mom added me on facebook

..How I lost my job and my appartment but am delighted to have such amazing friends

…How this has been a very very very important but shitty year for me

…How Maren is launching a big piece of fabulous motion work soon..stay toond cuz the girl kiks ass..

…How most of my days are spent cruising

Yours truly,

Lana

P.S if you see an amazing ass in silver sequinned panties on the tv, thats mine

After numerous features in fab fash mags and amazing undisclosed clients, Ziad is doing fabulous and sharing his success with all his young, creative and driven “children”. Zaza will be showing at London fashion week and it will be truly awesome!

She’s couture and I love her

Amazing detail, clear japanese  & Russian fairytale inspiration. Definitely my favourite illustrator now, check out more of his work here

/Lana